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I leave for Colorado on Thursday and I'm very excited. It's not like I'm super homesick and I need to see my family, I just want to. It'll be nice to be back in Colorado for a weekend. I'm going to go to my high school, and visit my closest friends. I'm also very excited to see the new puppy that my family adopted. It's a lap dog, and they've been sending my pictures and videos ever since they adopted it. She's probably the cutest puppy I've ever seen. Besides Daisy, the black lab we already own. It might be a little unhealthy that I'm counting down the days, but I think that once I get back I won't feel like I need to see them. Mainly because I know that I won't be seeing them until Christmas. I think this one weekend at home will be good for me, and then I'll be good until Thanksgiving to see my mom, and Christmas for the rest of my family.

It's crazy how one person can mean so much to you. There are so many people on this planet, and just one person can make such a huge impact on you. Now, the person that I'm talking about doesn't realize the effect they have on me. All he does is just amaze me everyday. I hate that I let him has the effect on me, but it's what happens. It's been like this for so many years, I'm sick of feeling this way. It just is annoying feeling that I can't seem to get rid of. But, now that I'm in college I'm hoping I'll make him part of my past.

As for now, I have homework to do.
I'll see you soon.

So I'm not even sure what I want to write right now.
College is fun.
Cross country is fun.
I think so far I do a pretty good job at managing my time. But, I haven't really gotten into the complete swing of things, but I think I have a pretty good idea of what I'm going to do everyday, generally I guess..
I'm really tired right now.
I'm really excited to read my poem in psychology class tomorrow, I absolutely love writing poetry.
I don't know what I would do without music in my life. It's probably the best therapy. Honestly.
Well I think that's all for tonight.
I'll see you soon

Vivid Dreaming

So I wrote this poem during my AP Literature class senior year of high school, and I absolutely love it. I really love writing poetry.

The mist and the dark red scene
All ten were the opening act.
A school setting like a jail overrun
Even mutant enemies were present, in face

Two sides, one location
Mast chaos amidst, all could see this
I was the sixth
Hoping all would take the miss.

Leaving is all what one wanted to do
Into the open air
Take one step, two steps, three, and four
It was a game of few rules, but even the good were unfair.

Returning was hell
Having to fight and kill was worse
Not ever being able to sleep
And letting each day run its course.

After hours and days
And weeks and nights
Lost loves found in blurry rooms
With knives and guns and flying kites.

Right when it seems like the end is near
The tension, the betrayals, secrets and losses
Old friends are the ones who signify fear
While new alliances represent the future for all.

COLLEGE.

Wow. I kind of failed at the whole blogging thing. BUUUT. I'm not going to do some big update of everything you've missed because that would just take too much time.. SO, I'm heading to college in 11 days.. It's crazy how fast time flies. I'm going to be attending PLU in Tacoma, WA. I will be on the cross country and track teams. I'm so excited for this new chapter in my life, I know it will be an amazing experience. I'm moving in 2 and 1/2 weeks early because of cross country camp. I'm so nervous. My friend's Hannah and Giselle are also attending PLU with me. It's going to be so fun to take on this incredible journey with them. But, they won't be there until September 5th, so I'm going to have to survive without them. I know it's really not that bad, because I thought I was going to be attending the school without knowing anyone. It's crazy that all three of us are attending the same college. We're all going for different reasons, and we're going to conquer it together. When I visited Washington state, I fell in love. It's a place I want to always call my home, even if I don't live there forever. I want to try living in Seattle after I graduate, get a job and spend a few years there. Also, I have this dream, where I live in New York City for a year. I know it's going to be hard to find an affordable apartment, but I'm very excited to do that as well. Oh! I almost forgot: my major. Now, I'm not quite sure what I'm majoring in, but some field in the school of business. Maybe business marketing? We'll see. I ultimately want to be a writer. I want to be an author. I want to have books published and be so amazing they are turned into movies. That is my ultimate dream. I haven't really wrote anything for a while, but I'm going to get back into it, and do it daily. I absolutely love writing. If I could do it all day as my job, I would. But for now, it's my hobby, my passion. WOW. Okay. What else can I tell you? I have my very own beautiful MacBook Air! It's probably the most beautiful thing I've owned ever. Hmm... I love to sing. It's another thing I'm very passionate about. If I could be a singer, I would. But, there's one problem. I can't write my own music, I don't know if I have enough talent to do that.. I'll just stick to singing other artist's songs. I'm not sure where my life is going to end up like in four years, but I'm more than excited to see what happens. So what? Maybe I'll just be a singer who writes books and runs marathons.
So... talk later?